It’s good to rant, complain, and write it out here on the blog. It’s good to look back and reassess and compare. Last month I had little to no control over flashbacks. This morning I realized I was crocheting, watching a show, and experiencing a flashback at the same time. And… I didn’t miss a stitch. The flashback came and I was able to turn down the intensity and eventually file it when it had passed. It just rolled on along like any other thing.
So, a little victory for me because the coping techniques I’ve been practicing actually worked finally. *whew* The flashbacks used to take nearly half a day to experience and process. Oh! I also did it without any medication. I’ve been Xanax-free for a few days now, too.
As I write this I feel the ol’, “That’s two steps forward. Here comes the one step backwards.” inner-talk. I know there will be setbacks, but this makes my day a little brighter. I had more anxiety giving myself a B-12 shot this morning than dealing with a new flashback.
Yay for little wins!
Controlled Chaos 